December 2009
1 post
3 tags
5 years hacking education
what i’ve learned is that nothing at this level takes as long as we expect it to. lack of experience tells the honest lie for us. never would have thought id come this far, yet i should’ve been here way sooner. still going to take me longer. not that psycho determination and effort in my bones won’t cut it. its the uphill battle, the flopped deck of cards, the poor choice of...
August 2009
1 post
is my head going to explode
literally spend all day every day thinking internet internet internet internet internet internet internet, moving the code around in my head, planning for new code in the endless list for the future, keep programming it everyday so i can launch as soon as the now. deadline ~0 life for me till its done because this opportunity i created for myself. none of it is easy to build where im blessed with...
June 2009
4 posts
internet machine builder
i’ve been working on this for a long time. i won’t always do everything internet alone. i see startup advice that discuss methods for getting a web service online and running for around $10k and think to myself “why didn’t i go that route?”. then i remember that they probably can’t build it like me. their brain doesn’t work like mine. they either consider...
first time for life internet entrepreneur... →
#freeseo summary with realtime search case study →
blessed
for the first time in my life i understand happiness. for the first 28.5 years of my life i can honestly say that i have never felt periods of true happiness. sure, i have felt what happiness is during the few short periods in my life where i was in love and had that love requitted. but those feelings always accompanied feelings of anxiety due to the situation i was in. the cards in love have...
May 2009
12 posts
reality
the only reality i know is through my internet connected world. there are no peers i can turn to for feedback or help. there is no guidance for the questions i have. the internet is my teacher for the things i need to know. for most the information i need, i seek the internet for the answers. but there are few questions that even the internet has no answers. the internet does not have the answers...
internet television version 0.01 →
discipline
i once told myself that i wasn’t going to quit because i wanted to show her what i was capable of. two months later i had lost 45 pounds of fat and gained 10 pounds of muscle. discipline got me there. i wrote down my diet meal for meal for the duration of the program i put myself on. the length and intensity of the cardio fat burning activity increased ritualistically. the weight training...
screaming in my head
the screams are getting louder. earlier today i took a break from internet to lay on the couch. two more internet devices popped into my head. i laid there thinking about a schematic for the hardware implementation. i even came up with a social networked web service addon that it could be tied to. the business model is profitable. attaching it to the proper social media platform would virtually...
my head is biz tech →
inevitable
i didnt choose this path. this path chose me. i didnt choose to have narcolepsy. if i had my way i would have stayed awake all those years of high school and earned my way into Stanford or MIT. innovation comes naturally to me, and time is no longer distorted in my eyes. the perception to each passing day is unfolding the future i see before me. it’s even predictable. i didn’t even...
machines in my brain
it sounds funny to even me. i have automated category killer internet machines ingrained in my brain. the schematics are complete up there. i can tell you how to put them all together without having any piece of them in front of me. yes indeed, there are more than one. they came to me naturally. and at some point over my three years in solitude with several computers and the internet, their...
smart design
its exciting to think that ill be amongst the first. i commented on Bijan’s blog a couple of days ago regarding the differences between west coast and east coast internet design flavors. my internet technologies are intuitive cutting edge internet machines that have appeal to the public eye. it’s exciting to know that with all the innovation happening in the world today that i’ll...
pedigree
i didn’t attend Harvard or Stanford. i didn’t have an opportunity to. this isn’t a sob story, i thank god every night i go to sleep because i get to wake up every morning. before September 2008 i did not comprehend waking up on my own because i have Narcolepsy. yet with no pedigree this ailment enabled a self education of the internet that has enabled me to design several...
haha
everybody is being funded for companies that have revenue models based on user numbers and advertisments while a patent sits in my brain that people would happily pay for. haha.
basketball
they built a basketball court for me here in this warehouse where i spend all of my time behind five computer screens working internet. i listen to music twenty-four-seven either through my music collection viewable at http://www.last.fm/user/jasonspalace or through pandora at http://www.pandora.com/people/digitalpyro - my taste in music has wide variety. i know everything there is to know about...
14 hours
the few people i have around me call me matrix. for the past 3.5 years i have made it a point to work as close to 14 hours a day seven days a week as humanly possible to know everything there is to know about internet. i am building a little technology right now. nothing special in my eyes, but hopefully enough to prove that i know internet. and when my brain is not focused on this little...
April 2009
9 posts
an emotional moment
i was working internet today and read about a business plan competition at Wharton. my sql syntax was off today. i felt belittled at the opportunities i didn’t have in this life because of narcolepsy. then i realized, i have something special too.
connected to the world
i live my life behind several computer screens. 14 hours a day, seven days a weeks i work the internet. my connection to this world is through social media. i am connected to the world via the internet.
born to do this
several years ago i remember being at a party and hearing whispers. “he was meant to run a company of his own.” i never forget this. i was born to do this. some nights i dream in code. i believe i am meant to change an industry. i have a fully mapped plan in my brain that excites me when i think about it briefly. it almost overwhelmes me when i think about it fully. we could literally...
it is all in my head
it is in my head. it is all un my head. close to four years straight researching and developing an internet technology that does not exist. close to four years of my life spent on something that could literally change the way we think about an industry. i have it mapped entirely in my brain. imagine secluding yourself from everyone and everything you care about for four years of your life to do...
“the mortgage industry sucks! it’s boring, nothing has changed, and people...”
“the more time i put into developing the solid business plan that will be my door...”
so i began looking over 3.5 years of my work yesterday and realized that i’m wanting to do more than create an internet technology startup - i want to make a monster come alive.
“whatever you want, earn it, then take it, because nobody will give it to you.”
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“there is nothing in this world i will let stop me now.”
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